Security

I feel a lot more secure now. I was scared the most of Shane breaking up with me. Now that it happened, and I am still “alive and kicking” nothing, absolutely nothing, can hurt me.

It actually didn’t hurt that bad this time. At least so far it has been much better than it was over the summer. I am not sure why. Maybe because it is still up in the air and I still think there is a possibility for me to cuddle up to Shane and kiss him good night. Or maybe because I just don’t care anymore. Or maybe I care, but learned to contain it within myself over the summer.

I have talked about all of it. I talked to Natalya, Jazmin, Amanda. It is nice to have girl time - I don’t get a lot of it normally. I have been told by them that I am not a crazy bitch for wanting to be with my man and that’s good enough for me.