Drunken notes

Todd and I had a small psychotherapy section about 4 AM around his 10th-12th beer and my lonely glass of Bloody Mary. It proved to be very useful and I enjoyed it.
(also in the morning I feel hung over after one glass and he is fine, what's up with that?)
I was taking notes. Pathetic? Maybe.

I have already in my hungoverness tossed the notes in the laundry basket and had to go fish them out. Here they are:

• I miss Shane right now, but it is not necessarily because I love him. It is called separation anxiety. And the only way to find out if I love him is to wait and see if I still miss him. My mom is saying the same thing. She said I was able to fall in love so quickly in Arkansas, which means I don't love Shane. But I don't think I was in love with Deric. I just enjoyed his company. And gave it up for Shane. So maybe I do love Shane.
• "Fight, don't break up." - that is like discovering America for me. It never occurred to me couples can just have big fights and it is not necessary that I end a fight in a break up immediately. We should be able to have BIG fights and get over them, if we are a good couple.
• Almost all men have anger problems and I need to understand it if  I want a good relationship.
• All women are emotional and Shane needs to understand it if he wants any of his relationships to work out.
• I additionally have a crying disorder.
• Todd and Courtney have similar fights when Todd is being a jerk to Courtney. And they constantly have to compromise.
• When I cry Shane doesn't understand why I am doing it. He thinks I want to make him feel bad. So he can't enjoy himself  at Daniel's completely because he thinks I am depressed. I end up making Shane feel bad over nothing.
• I need to figure out completely  why I cry so easily.
• Shane is not ready for a relationship like I want it. He just wants to hang out and spend time with his friends not worrying about anything.