It does.

Hanging with Cameron.

I am very honest. This little piece is a good proof of it:

Me: See, I have been down this road before. And we both know how well that worked. After all do you really want your stuff scattered all over my backyard?
Cameron: Well I don't have a trampoline.

Hahahaha. He is cool. What I like about him is that he is excited about things. He is excited about life. He texted me one day : "I just found baby mice in my back yard. They are super cute!!!" That made me smile. When I am around him, I feel like I am a teenager again, maybe even younger. It's nice.

Nice...

"This time it was different. There were no revelations.There were no answers to the life questions handed down to me. There was no fear. There was no giggling. This time there was just a calm realization that things will be okay eventually. There was just happiness."

Me: Oh hi Trevor. I am writing you a email.
Trevor: Cool! I like your warnings. Like I have a bad heart or something. Sometimes I pass the fuck out when I get a email in my inbox.

Good Russian proverb.

От сумы и от тюрьмы не зарекайся.

Currently

• Nashville is much bigger than I expected. Pretty though. Everyone here seems to love it.
• Tobias is wonderful. I think we will get along well. I kind of like the whole German practicality and responsibility thing.
• I enjoy bananas.
• Some small things are much more meaningful than other big things. Really.
• I can feel. That is nice.
• People care. I love Americans :)
• I rode next to a mormon guy on a plane. He was pretty cool. They only have ONE wife. I asked.
• I don't think love is supposed to be easy, but I do know it's not supposed to be a struggle. --- thanks Deric <3
• Bars are so fun in a right company. I might have had the most fun in the bar EVER last night. No kidding. We played darts and hung out and had a few drinks. I had long island ice tea, tequila sunrise, bloody mary and grasshopper. Wow I just realized I had a lot O.o
• I cannot wait for Germany. And for Graduate school. Time to start studying the language.
• Oh... life is so wonderful!
• Well except the school part. I am so ready for a break. I get depressed in those walls now. Well except when I am hanging out with my friends and Dr. Pearson :)

On happiness, love and choices.

Clinging to a feeling of happiness
How fleeting it is.
Happy one moment, unhappy next
One can  not grasp that feeling
But only can make a choice
And be happy or sad.

Same is love.
How do we know who is right for us?
We never do.
Why do we feel in love?
We make a choice to feel
One way or another.

I chose to give you my love
And chose to be taking yours.
One day we chose to stop
And be angry and upset
Choices we made
We may or may not regret.

I will be your friend
Once I let go of anger;
Forgive myself and forget.
Promises will be forgotten
And that we broke them as well,
Until then I can't.

Emotionless

I think I temporarily lost my ability to feel. I guess it is nice. Very easy and relaxing.
How was it in the Sex and the City (the god-awful-terrible show that chicks watch)..?

"Maybe you are only allotted a certain amount of tears per one man and I have used up mine."

I believe it is also the case that you are only allotted a certain amount of emotions every month/year. I used all of mine up on March 8th.

Just realized that it was the National Women Day in Russia on that day too.